I probably like you too much

So when I first met you, I was probably faced with this dilemma.  

I have a problem with moderation.

 

And if you're reading this, you are probably one of the ones I like too much.  

 I have a problems of extremes.  I seem to become obsessed with things.  

So if I liked you - I probably wanted to do this to you.

 

And because I'm awkward, anytime you feel sad I will want to do this.

 

I often compare my affection for people as an excited Labrador puppy.   I get so excited when I like someone that I will leave my trail of slobber on their pants.  In doing this I am saying in a cute puppy voice, "please love me back, oh please, oh please!"    And if they demonstrate even one ounce of reciprocating eagerness I will I love them so much that I will practically hump their leg in giddy elation.

Food

Food is so very embedded in our culture as something to both love and loathe.  Being an individual who lost a great deal of weight, I am often confronted with this dichotomy.  Do I try to eat "healthy" foods while avoiding the "unhealthy" ones?  Or do I simply try to achieve a balance and never label anything as bad or good?  I strive for the latter but am often confronted with guilt and trying to separate emotion from my food choices.  I am bombarded by the "health culture" that surrounds diet websites and the norm to hate yourself because you may have some squish. 

 On that note, I made pizza last night and this is how I feel about eating my pizza

This blog

I am starting this blog as a way to actually put some of my thoughts out there, for anyone who may want to read them.  The picture above was labelled, "inner growth."  That's why I'm starting this.  I am constantly attempting to go forward, to grow, to learn, and become my anticipated future self.  I started this blog in order to write down and actually allow some visibility to those around me, unlike a private journal or diary.  So if you do get to read this, hello and welcome to my inner random world.  I hope you enjoy it.