Empathy or the ability to really feel what another is going through is something I really have a gift for. I've always struggled with and have been gifted with intense empathy. I can vicariously experience another person's emotions.
But the real question is, is it a gift? Or is it a curse?
Overexcitabilties are defined as "inborn intensities indicating a heightened ability to respond to stimuli" (sengifted.org). They are very present in gifted children and adults. There are different types of overexcitabilities. The one I seem to suffer from is called an emotional overexcitability. Feelings are not simply feelings but instead extremely intense to these individuals. According to sengifted.org "it is reflected in heightened, intense feelings, extremes of complex emotions, identification with others’ feelings, and strong affective expression (Piechowski, 1991). According to one interesting article from thegiftedway.com, adults with intense sensitivity encounter have an amazing gift, but feel isolated. "On the negative side, these gifted adults may not understand that others
do not feel so deeply or intensely or that others may have different
priorities. They may be very intolerant of the needs of others when they
perceive those needs to be superficial."
As a child I remember being so concerned with the feelings of others, even things that didn't have feelings. I used to cry over killing bugs. I would feel immense guilt over killing some random bug. I felt that I had no right to take another life. What if this bug didn't live it's life to the fullest? What if I stole it's life before it had completed it's purpose? Think of how scared and painful it was to die in such a meaningless way and by some giant. It sounds like a horrible overreaction but I remember it vividly. Even today I have a really hard time listening to stories of mothers murdering their children in explicit detail. It just pangs me. So in order to preserve myself, I try to limit my exposure to these sorts of stories.
So yes, I often feel intensely. I feel too much - too much sorrow, too much love, too much grief. Everything is an overwhelming amount of feeling. I can't feel blandly. My feelings are far from shallow. Instead I'm intense, fervid, and passionate. I love with my whole heart - putting myself into it as deep as I can. Sadness is something I can more than just feel, but somehow I can see the hues of sadness, and hear it's cry inside myself. Usually my intensity can be quite overwhelming to others. I'm intense and other people really can't handle it a lot of the time. The rational side of me is completely aware of how illogical it is to feel with your entire heart but I can't seem to convince myself otherwise. With this I really have a knack for picking up on others' emotions. They may say with their words what they are thinking and feeling, but I look past their words and can intuitively grasp what is beneath the surface.
Do you relate to any of the other four overexcitabilities?
As a child I remember being so concerned with the feelings of others, even things that didn't have feelings. I used to cry over killing bugs. I would feel immense guilt over killing some random bug. I felt that I had no right to take another life. What if this bug didn't live it's life to the fullest? What if I stole it's life before it had completed it's purpose? Think of how scared and painful it was to die in such a meaningless way and by some giant. It sounds like a horrible overreaction but I remember it vividly. Even today I have a really hard time listening to stories of mothers murdering their children in explicit detail. It just pangs me. So in order to preserve myself, I try to limit my exposure to these sorts of stories.
So yes, I often feel intensely. I feel too much - too much sorrow, too much love, too much grief. Everything is an overwhelming amount of feeling. I can't feel blandly. My feelings are far from shallow. Instead I'm intense, fervid, and passionate. I love with my whole heart - putting myself into it as deep as I can. Sadness is something I can more than just feel, but somehow I can see the hues of sadness, and hear it's cry inside myself. Usually my intensity can be quite overwhelming to others. I'm intense and other people really can't handle it a lot of the time. The rational side of me is completely aware of how illogical it is to feel with your entire heart but I can't seem to convince myself otherwise. With this I really have a knack for picking up on others' emotions. They may say with their words what they are thinking and feeling, but I look past their words and can intuitively grasp what is beneath the surface.
Do you relate to any of the other four overexcitabilities?
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor OE is a heightened
excitability of the neuromuscular system. This Psychomotor intensity includes a
“capacity for being active and energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of
movement for its own sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech,
zealous enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action.
Sensual
OE is expressed as a heightened experience of sensual pleasure or displeasure
emanating from sight, smell, touch, taste, and hearing (Dabrowski &
Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991).
Intellectual
OE is demonstrated by a marked need to seek understanding and truth, to gain
knowledge, and to analyze and synthesize (Dabrowski & Piechowski, 1977;
Piechowski, 1979, 1991).
Imaginational
OE reflects a heightened play of the imagination with rich association of
images and impressions, frequent use of image and metaphor, facility for
invention and fantasy, detailed visualization, and elaborate dreams (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991)
tor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action - See more
at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf
Psychomotor
OE is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. This
Psychomotor intensity includes a “capacity for being active and
energetic” (Piechowski, 1991, p. 287), love of movement for its own
sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, zealous
enthusiasm, intense physical activity, and a need for action (Dabrowski
& Piechowski, 1977; Piechowski, 1979, 1991) - See more at:
http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/overexcitability-and-the-gifted#sthash.6v7XoUdt.dpuf